Thursday, 25 February 2010

  • I miss the voices in my head that tell me to be strong.

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    Hey everyone :)

    Sorry i havent updated or been on Xanga for such a long time - sooo much has happened.

    I need  fresh start, my weight has ballooned out of control and now im completely ashamed of myself, i want to be confident and happy again. Plese help me - its two weeks untill my birthday on tuesday so i want to lose as much weight as possible - il start tomoro, but does anyone have any suggestions? I tried the Lemonge Diet once before and it really worked but as soon as i ate agin - i gained even more weight even easier! Im currently at my heighest weight ive ever been and will do just about anything to shift it. I just need the motivation!

    Love xxx

     

Thursday, 19 November 2009

  • Thinspo

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    11b 10b 9b 8b 7b

    Eaten so far:

    B-0

    L-0

    D-O (hope so keep it that way!)

    Doing well so far - i was abouve 9 stone which was still my highest weight EVER but im back down to nine today - somehow after bunge eating yesterday...hope to be a good few pounds lighter tomoro. One good thing about gaining - being bigger, is that its easier to loose at first which gives me motivation etc. Encourages me :) - learned from today - dont have breakfast- if i dont eat all day i feel im doing well and dont want to or il ruin it!

    Love love xxx

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

  • Update and thinspo

    1 Heres some lovely thinspo and arty buissness :)

    I want to look Cute,

    2

    Sexy,

    2

    Confident,

    3

    Fashionable,

    4

    delicate,

    5

    Heroin chic and beautiful. I want to be happy. I want it all.

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    Why cant i do this!? Why have i lost all self control!? I just want to eat constantly - even when im bursting with fullness i stuff my big fat face - gradually watching my disgusting - already rounded face balloon into Mr.Moonhead!!!

    Today i ate pretty much half a box of cereal and countless hob knob biscuits. I slept about an hour yesterday - could it be due to the lack of sleep? Ive been so tired but cant sleep and i havent had  my periods since the 19th Sep...i took a shitty cheap pregnancy test but it said i wasnt pregnant. Whats wrong with me :S - no meat or "nutritional" foods perhaps?

    Anyway - everydays a new start... I have to stop going the way i am - im going the opposite fucking way, i can genuinly say that id rather have the body i started off with when i decided i was fat...well - its been apparent for as long as i remember but - when i try and have the chance i fail. I didnt even go to uni - once again. What am i playing at. fuck. Im really suffering from depression right now but comfort eating AHHH. Im so ashamed of my body that i missed out on going out once again, meeting my boyfriend and turned down an Ann Summers party - i mean COME ON wtf!?

    Anyway heres some thinspo for you lovelys :)

Tuesday, 17 November 2009

  • I fucked up. Big time. UPDATE_AGE

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    That pretty much says it all. I have to make a fesh start - i hate starting diets etc on randome days etc - i prefer mondays for example but yeh...im the highest weight ive ever been after weeks of constant fucking binge eating. Its sickening, im so repulsed by my body - im only 7lbs lighter than my boyfriend who is like 7 inches taller. FML!

    Im going to make a change to my life, i need help. please?

     

     

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    My back and neck etc are fucking killing me - prob from lying on my bed with my laptop etc for hours and my bed (which i can feel the springs!) but yeh - i went to have a back and my fucking flatmates had decided to buy fish and alchohol which are both being kept cool in the bloody bath! The cleaners have already said theyl take our hundred pound deposit off us for our kitchen - THEY WILL FLIIIIP!!!

    AS

     I had uni today, it was life drawing EWW this old guy - with a belly ring, fake tan AND a dribbeling penis - it was VULGAR! He kept getting a semi too. BOKE. Anyway - im going to work harder at uni - and ATTEND as much as possible haha... :S before im kicked out!

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    I want to feel free, happy and light. I am the weight on your shoulders, i WILL get lighter and lighter, eventually i will dissapear.

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    Carmen from "The L Word" she is GORGEOUS - i wish i was naturally beutiful like that.

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    Damit, ive been smoking again. I dont even like it much anymore. I think il only do it if im about to eat or binge unnecessarily?

    TOMORO-Plan

    WED

    B- 0

    L- 0

    D- Cottage cheese. Think me and a few girls from my course are going out drinking :S ( i always miss it and miss out so im ging to go)

    THU-(untill im 7 stone---maybe)

    Im going to do an adaption to the "special K diet" Im going to have a bowl of cereal for dinner each night.

     

    Wisheth me lucketh. Please help :S

Sunday, 15 November 2009

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